Are you ever gonna be that real to me?

Pardon my French, but how the fuck does this deserve a Daily Deviation:

Squares by ~voltiostudio on deviantART

I mean... it's cool and everything, but does it really deserve to be FEATURED? It's just a bunch of damn squares.

What is Deviantart coming to? DDDDX

so OMFG, my nanowrimo novel this year is about a princess who has to pretend to be a prince to keep the sexy but arrogant son of an evil witch from inheriting the kingdom (since there the only way a woman can be ruler is if she becomes queen by marrying the current king). God, it's going to be fun <3

My dad is retarded DX
In my mom's daycare, we're going to bolt the TV to the wall because he says the kids will be able to pull it down.
It's on a sturdy TV stand in the corner, so it's supported by the walls. It's up too high for a kid to really reach. The TV also weighs about 80 pounds. The corners and edges are rounded, so there's no way a kid could get a hold on it to pull it down.
The ONLY way for a kid to knock it over would be if they got behind it and pushed, but it's in the corner, so there's no way to get behind it.
So now that it'll be bolted to the wall, we won't be able to switch the input between VCR and DVD player for when the kids want to watch movies.
WTF?

Shit. What the fuck?
What is wrong with this guy?
On Gaia, some guy was pestering me about how he hated the picture of myself I had in my sig, saying it made him say "eew" and shit, and just generally trying to get a rise out of me...

And today he has that pic of me in HIS sig with a caption that says "isn't my girl cute?"

WHAT. THE. FUCK?

Why does he have to constantly try to piss me off? I don't know whether to take it out of my sig or not. It would be like he won if I did, but does that really matter? It's just... pissing me off and creeping me out.

What the fuck?

HOMIGAWD, it's been over a year since I've updated! DX I feel like such a bastard. But... anyway... I've actually changed a lot. I'm still spastic and friendly and way, way annoying. The changes have been subtle. I'm not really sure what they are, but I can tell that I've changed. Go figure.

I got a new layout 8D It was made my . I think it's adorable. It makes me want to lick my screen. It's just... so cute.

So, I got into Fruits Basket (just the manga) and Ouran High School Host Club since my last update XD And Boogiepop Phantom and Vampire Knight. Plus, I finished DN and collected all of Mikiyo Tsuda's manga, including the whole Princess Princess series ^^ That's about all, fandom-wise.

I've become ragingly addicted to Champions of Norrath (AGAIN) on PS2. My sister and I have been playing. I'm a Dark Elf Shadow Knight named Korin, and he's damn sexy. He's got scalemail armor and a big-ass axe. He's a level ten at the moment, and Brittany's Wood Elf, Lorilai, is a level 11, and he's got a color-coordinated gold and red outfit XD Damn, this addiction! ;_;

So anyway, I realized I've never posted a picture of myself on here. So... here's one. It's from last week when I became obsessed with the cuteness of the lollipop.


So... I'll be sure to update sooner next time. I've been updating my LJ (http://moonchild10.livejournal.com) a lot more than I've been updating my IJ, for some reason *dies*

Well, take care! ^^

OK, so finally something worth writing about has happened.

I don't know if I ever mentioned it before, but one of my best friends, Savannah, has a little brother. Recently whenever I hang out with Savannah he's been hitting on me/indirectly asking me out. And, knowing me, I just sort of ignored it and hoped it would go away and tried to keep my mind off it. But the other day, he was actually direct about it, and I actually had to come clean and tell him that I wasn't interested in him that way and that I really didn't want to be anything more than friends.

So... he says he's not mad at me, but I'm sort of worried he is. I mean, he says it's okay since he already has a girlfriend anyway, but secretly I think he's bluffing and he IS mad at me. Hopefully things won't be as awkward as I think they will be. I feel sort of bad, but I'm just not attracted to him. It would be awkward. I mean, back when we were all in school we used to make a hobby out of teasing him. He was such a cute little "kid" XD So, it's hard to think of his as anything but that... the cute little freshman that we liked to tease. Bah, I hope everything works out okay.

Phew. Not really anything to say for now. As far as life goes, nothing has changed. Nothing of importance has happened. Things are the same as usual.

I started a doujinshi project... a Death Note one called "Heart Note". I'll probably end up posting some stuff here for it, but for now there's just some sketches and layout work done. I can tell it's going well, though, because I'm losing sleep over it XD Hopefully it'll turn out great! But seeing as how I get impatient with art sometimes, who knows?


So, I'll shut up now ^^ Not much really to say.

Well, there's been slight progress with my missing dog. The other day, someone called from a screened number and told us she had Baby. But when my mom asked where we could come and get Baby, the lady hung up. Later, she called again (also from a screened number), and told my mom she'd decided to keep Baby and wouldn't give her back. Then she said a lot of rude things to my mom and eventually hung up.

Since the number was screened, there was no way of telling who it was. But then, get this, the police stepped in! They're actually running an investigation to find out where the call was coming from and help get Baby back! When I got up on Sunday (at four in the afternoon since I'd pulled two all-nighters in a row on Friday and Saturday and gone to bed at noon XD) there was this really young officer sitting in our kitchen (who reminded me a little too much of Matsuda, but it's all good XDD). He was very concerned about the situation, being an animal person himself, and so now the police are going to track the call and find the person who stole Baby! This is way too awesome... I think they might actually be able to find her! I really, really hope they can. I want her back so much! But until they finish tracking down the caller (which might take a little while), all we can do is wait. But I'm really grateful to the police for actually taking the situation seriously.

But... I'm irritated for some reason today. And so, to help cheer myself up, I'll go on a rant about my pet peeves >.< I put this behind a cut so none of you would have to read it

-People who make their journal "friends only" and then never even post once.
-People who draw every anime character they like as a Lion King character... it was cute at first, guys, but it's getting a little ridiculous.
-That murderer in Belgium who's posing as Kira. Seriously, if there's one person you DON'T want to emanate, it's Light Yagami. And it's pathetic that people are dying because of an anime
-Homophobics. Seriously, I just really want to hurt every single one of them. "Eeew, gay is wrong becuz I'm a stupid overly-religious asshole with nothing better to do than judge people for being happy with someone of the same sex when I can't get laid by my wife" Whiners, assholes, complete idiots.
-Those random people who send me messages on myspace asking if I'm into BDSM. Good lord, could you be any more forward?
-People who get pissed at you for adding them to your friends list. It's not like I can read their friends only posts if they don't add me back. Oh, but having my name on their "friend of" list in their profile is causing them serious damage due to the radiation that someone you don't know adding you produces!
-Ebay sellers. I bought an L plushie for my sister for Christmas. I paid for it. They never sent it, never bothered to contact me, and never gave me a refund.
-Peeple hoo don't yuz spel chek
-People (Sean) who bitch you out for pronouncing a Japanese word wrong when they're the one who pronounces "Ritsuka" like "Ritu-soo-ka". The U is silent, Mr. Japanese expert. Doy.
-People who write stories/draw art where they date the main character of the fandom. I don't know why, but it's really annoying.
-People who put "OMG PLZ R&R" in the summary of a fanfic. Either that or "story is better than summaries" or "I suck at summaries". It doesn't take that much effort to think up a short description of your story.
-Badly made AMV's
-Those CERTAIN people who watch Sukisyo on Veoh and leave comments the THIRD episode in that say "OMG is this one of those gay animez?" Um... duh. The first scene in the first episode is a guy feeling up his male roommate, and every guy is either single or has a BOYfriend. Wow, you couldn't tell?
-People who comment on a picture of a character on deviantart just to say "I don't know who this is"
-Gorillaz fans. Now, I love Gorillaz, but all other fans besides Sammy that I know are WAY too overprotective of the band. I made a silly video about Murdoc, and received death threats. For serious. They are FICTIONAL, for God's sake.
- the Catholic church. I have nothing against Catholics. Some of my best friends are Catholics. But the religion itself pisses me off to no end.

I guess I'll shut up now ^^

I know it's probably a terrible thing to say, but I can't really help it. I'm starting to think I honestly loathe my father. I mean... we've never gotten along and we've never been all that fond of each other, but lately he's turning into more and more of a psychopathic asshole and I'm starting to hate him. 

He got sick of my poor little Baby, and so he kicked her out of the house, which is why she's lost. A year ago he got mad at my mom and lied to the police, saying she tried to kill him so he could get a restraining order against her so she couldn't see me and my sister, just to hurt her. He routinely goes off on two-hour rants and threatens to beat me over tiny, minor things. And the other day, I walked away from him so he'd stop yelling at me and he grabbed mye by the neck and threw me on the floor, and then called me a pussy when I cried. I'm pretty sure he was going to punch me after that, but my sister came and protected me, and he would never dare hurt her

. I guess I might be hating him over nothing... I mean, he does more threatening than hurting and more emotional abuse than anything, which leaves no visible marks, so I guess I shouldn't be whining about it when a lot of people have it much worse. I have friends who've been savagely abused, and I'm pretty lucky considering.  But I just can't fucking stand him. He's been making me feel like shit since I was too young to even remember. A lot of my first memories involve fighting with him. Everyone in my family hates him... my mom is sick of him and my sister hates him as much as I do. But every time he goes off on a rant, he threatens to leave, and for some reason I can't tell him "just go" and get it over with.  And how the hell do I stand to be so chipper all the time when he's such a dick? I don't even understand myself sometimes. 

On a lighter note, I don't care what he does. He stops being crazy after a few hours and then cries and expects everyone to feel sorry for him. Whatever. Things aren't as bad as they seem when I freak out about things like this. I suppose it doesn't even matter. 

I'll be my usual self by tomorrow, so who cares? Why do I even bother ranting about it? Bah, it's no cause for worry. I'm an asshole for writing about it where people will see and think I'm depressed or something. I rarely get depressed. 

So anyway, the body for my dollfie came in the mail yesterday, and I dressed him up like a cute transvestite. I just have to wait for his hair to get here and paint him some eyes and makeup, and then I'll take some pictures. He's so cute ^^ I just need to think up a name for him.

2:00 AM and Brittany fell asleep a while ago, so there's really nothing to do at the moment. So, as proof of my boredom, I write in this XD My fingers are too cold to type. Damn this poor circulation. And I don't even smoke! Bah!

I realize lately that I yaoi-ize everything, which is not a bad thing, but still... I'm WAY too addicted. I squeal over it while watching Death Note, for God's sake (it's not my fault L and Light are so cute together)! I support MxM couples in random movies I watch. I like Rileyxthat dude who's the main character in National Treasure. I was going to buy a really cheap complete manga set at Barnes and Noble the other day, and then decided against it because I realized it wasn't yaoi. I have no love left for het, which doesn't bother me much... I wasn't much into watching/reading anything with romance before I liked yaoi, anyway.  But my point is, I'm obsessed hopelessly, and I love it. 

Speaking of the slashies where they shouldn't be, Britt and I are collaborating on a manga/novel project that's actually not yaoi. It has no romance at all (because both of us dislike MxF couples and can't write romance if it isn't slash). It's a serial killer drama that's getting pretty hardcore as it develops... there's getting to be some betrayal and main characters are starting to die (including the uber-sexy genius Iristan who's lead of the investigation D8). But, the point here is, I couldn't let it be completely devoid of yaoi, so I'm writing some mildly slashy one-shots featuring various characters from it. The one-shots will fit into the story, but won't actually be in it. Here's one of them:

Things are all better in the OMG everything's horrible" department, so I won't waste time whining about it 8D I'm all smiley. I still haven't found my poor doggie, but I'm sure I will eventually, and everything will be okay. 

I finally ordered my dollfie (ball-jointed doll). He's one of the cheapter, 23 cm ones, and he's so cute! I'm getting long purple hair for him, and I've been shopping for his clothes and eyes and shoes all day. I feel just like a mother! :3

And now, a random girly survey! All of you fill out your answers or I'll hit you.

Happy new year, guys! 8D I hope you all have fun and do plenty of chillaxing. And such. Be safe, and don't get into any accidents!

Things have recently turned really shitty with my family, but I don't feel like ruining my spastic new year's spirit right now by talking about it. That's for a later entry. So for now, I'll be jolly and drink strawberry soda and eat pocky all night, and I hope you all do the same. Also, I'll watch Pri Pri again to refresh my memory for my fanfic. Woo. 

My new year's resolution is to crack down and finish writing BEloveD. You should all tell me yours. Fo' serious.

Have fun, guys!

Bah. Still no sign of my dog, but I'm a lot less depressed about it now, and I'm trying not use my usual coping method of pretending it's not reality, because I don't think that's healthy and it's a habit I should really work on. I guess being able to accept reality is kind of important and I should get started on it. 

Christmas is coming quick and there's still so much baking to do that I'm flying into a panic, but I like this kind of panic. It's fun and refereshing. Britt's presents (an L plushie and a Yuki plushie) still haven't come in the mail and I don't really think they will come in time, but I have backup presents for her in case that happens. The backup was my mom's idea, since she knows I'm never prepared for anything. 

I actually got that finer-tipped pen at the art store the other day, so I'll get started on my doujin eventually now. But for now there's too much to do to think about drawing Kouhei and his sexy silver hair. His super ultra-sexy silver hair... and his angsty belief that no one will ever really love him. He's too hawt for his own girl. Shit, am I fangirling over my own character? *slaps self* Not good. 

Also, I'm still waiting for the Soubi and Ritsuka plushies that Val and Becca made me to show up. It'll probably take a while, since it's around xmas, but that's ok because I don't really need them before then XD

I wish Adult Swim would play Death Note more than once a week... those bastards have gotten me addicted. 

Well, I'll shut up for now, I guess.

In the middle of the night a few days ago, my dad got tired of my dog and kicked her out of the yard (whenever she gets out of the yard she runs off, which is why he did it). She has since disappeared, and despite a lot of posters and calling the pound, there's no sign of her and I feel like there's nothing that can do. I'm afraid I'll never see her again. She's a little orange pomeranian, who answers to the name Baby (or anything that sounds like Baby) if anyone happens to see her who lives in the Billings area. I know it probably won't help much to post that here, but I really want to find her and I suppose everything helps a little. So, if you find her, please let me know!

And furthermore, chapter 3 of Loveless volume 9 came to shoku-dan today, and it depressed me even more. Poor Soubi... the poor guy goes through so much throughout the manga... I'm surprised it took him nine volumes to have a complete emotional breakdown. That Seimei is bad news. I still love him though... but not as much as Soubi.

I'm starting a BEloveD (my novel) doujinshi, by the way. I just need to buy some finer tipped pens next time I go shopping for art supplies. It'll probably end up being just a Kouhei-based backstory that takes place before the novel, because I'm lame like that and Saiyuki's hair is too hard to draw in a first-time doujin. And Emiko has no business being in a doujin when Saiyuki isn't even there. So bah. If I end up finishing anything noteable, I'll post links here. Savannah, add me to your friends list already, by the way!

I'm a little bit down right now, but I'll update when I start to feel better. I'm prone to mood swings lately, so I'm sure it won't be long.

Another day off from work! *is filled with joy* Today I'm making a cake for Savannah for her birthday... which was a while ago but I missed it. So, I'm making strawberry cake to make up for it, and she's going to come over and eat it. And then chances are we'll spend some time making fun of Eiri Yuki or watching Princess Princess and Gravitation. This is going to be a good old time. 

In other news, I started an asylum for Princess Princess, which is (among many other yaoi-esque anime) a current addiction: pri_pri

Also, I'm getting to work on my contest entry for pixiesticks.org, a wonderful yaoi/other things site which is currently not functioning, but I have to try writing my entry anyway. It's supposed to be a malexmale sex scene, which is totally my thing ^^ It'll end up being between my characters Mimura and Kai... CLASSROOM SEX! ♥

Well, this weekend will be amazing... Britt and I have plenty of pocky, yan yan, and botan rice candy and some unwatched anime about random people with pink hair. It's going to be fun... as long as we get enough energy drinks to keep us awake until we pass out as usual, and we don't forget to watch all those recorded episodes of Death Note we have. XD Misa is funny, Natalie. I don't care what you say! :3

And I can't seem to find any asylums for Sukisho/Sukisyo... this saddens me. Maybe I'll have to make one for that anime as well. So... much... manlove 8D

~Meikyou-chan

Woo! 8D Another post! For some reason, using this posting box exhilerates me. I have today off from work, so I'm happy beyond all reason and I've been working on my written anime all day. So much happy.

By the way, I hopped over here from LJ, so my account there is http://moonchild10.livejournal.com if you want to add me on there. I have a ton of fanfics and such posted there, since I'm lame.

By the way, does anyone else like Princess Princess (the manga/anime by Mikiyo Tsuda... the anime my default icon is from)? It's so adorable and well done. I'd love to find some fellow fans on here. If you like it, let me know. I'll be making an asylum for it pretty soon <3

By the way, until I can post my writing here, you can find it at http://koishii-ranshi.livejournal.com (most of it is yaoi and slash... Gorillaz, anime, and some originals)

Finally here, finally posting ^^ Glad to be here. First entry... doing good. For some reason (maybe the userpics) I like it better here than at livejournal. And it feels cosy here. I'm happy.

I'll be posting some fanfics soon, but for now, not much. I'm just sitting around, glad to be home from work and filled with Puri Puri fever.

I want the next chapter of Loveless volume 9... like right now.

-Meikyou-chan